why must you do that?
maybe im thinking a little negative here,
but looking at the circumstances and everything,
i may be right. here goes.

anon: where's singyi?
anon2: oh, she's AT HOME.
why dont you just say, " oh she's being a loser all by herself at home."

anon2: WHY YOU NEVER GO TAONAN TODAY?
anon3: oh cos BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH.
i think the reason was kinda obvious isnt it?

anon4: you want to come Bugis?
anon3: no.
anon4: okay, bye.

what would the normal conversation be?
anon-whoever: want to come bugis?
anon3: dont want lah, what you all doing there?
anon-whoever: come lahhhh.
and on and on.

so what were you all trying to say?
trying to remind me that you all were having tons of fun?
asking some question which is very obvious?
why didnt i go back to taonan?
anyone knows? obviously.

came into 1A.
talked to vivian, saw me.
walked off.

i dont know the real meaning
i wont ponder on it.

50 LAPS ROCKED (:
and running was fun :D
so i reached school early in the morning and people were running already. had so much fun and we didnt man the booth at all 'cos the sec2s said it was their turn? we walked around the place and music blaring (: and i had this ribbon in my hair for class identity which looked so stupid! everyone said i looked like mickey mouse? weird. everything just rocked so much. yushu and candia were the slowest in wheelbarrow! HAHAHA. and we keep seeing *people so many times. a special one! it was loads of times. okay, nevermind, dont care.
we went to the MPH for teachers' day celebration. <3>
so after school, i took bus back with varsha. (:


i didnt really want to bother anymore;
because im not gonna let anything get in my way.
if that's the way you really think i am.
you said i havent treated you as a friend?
if that's what you really want to believe.
we both did cheer each other up, made up jokes.
well, i was just saying what i felt.
what i really felt about those things.
so now im gonna say what i really think..
to me, it's just what i feel and im telling you how i felt.
as good friends, i thought you would understand.
it's like, if you know that your friend wont understand how you feel,
you wont tell her what you feel or anything in case your relationship gets ruined.
but i thought you would; but i guessed im wrong.
im not acting like a victim or anything here. but it's just how i feel.
i know you wont think this way. just to let you know what im feeling.
if you really want things to remain like this, i'll just step back too.
if that's what you really wish and hope for me to do.


quick, BE FRIENDS WITH HER! :D

why the hell must you do that?

end-of-years approaching.
time to mug?
oh no.

today training was slack! :D
thanks to the beautiful board we made for coach!
so it was raining and we spent 30 minutes doing nothing but just sitting around.
the rain started to stop and we went to dry the court. the court was still squishy so everything was kinda gross. unluckily, it started raining again :/ and did the worst PT ever--leap frog. it was...........pathetic. xD so i went for tuition and here i am.
today was a normal day, not exciting nor boring.
i got my crystals! (:


I NEVER THOUGHT YOU'D BE LIKE THAT. I DONT EVEN REALLY BOTHER ANYMORE. IF YOU'RE LIKE THAT, THEN FORGET ABOUT IT. WE THINK DIFFERENTLY AND I HAVE NO RIGHT TO OBJECT OR ANYTHING. IT'S A FREE WORLD WE'RE TALKING ABOUT. BUT SACRIFICES HAS TO BE MADE AND EVERYONE CHANGES. IF EVERYONE CAN CHANGE, WHY CANT YOU? leave me alone

what a screwed up life.

WHERE IS MY EZ LINK CARD
WHERE IS MY EZ LINK CARD
WHERE IS MY EZ LINK CARD
WHERE IS MY EZ LINK CARD
WHERE IS MY EZ LINK CARD
WHERE IS MY EZ LINK CARD
WHERE IS MY EZ LINK CARD
WHERE IS MY EZ LINK CARD
WHERE IS MY EZ LINK CARD

yes, i'm desperate.
damn.

omg.
@#^%$$#^#(**&^%$#$&!!!!!
where's my ez-link card!
GET IT BACK!
it's lost.

training on friday was horrible.
way horrible. didnt even feel happy or anything and got a lecture from seniors after training. but felt horrible cos that day wasnt what i exactly call great. i was being anti-social and was pissed off right in the morning. after reccess, had SEL and we had the voting thing. yushu and catherine got it, as expected. well, i did want to be a PSL and because of some personal reasons, i told miss wee i didnt wanna be. but anyway, there's always a next year. from then on, i was VERYYY anti-social. cant be bothered anyway. after school, we went to celebrate with fongwa her birthday. yay. only then did i even managed to talk and smiiiiile :D thanks to the tennis people <3.>
anyway,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY FONGWA!


so it's saturday and it was my sister's birthday (: i gave her a unique/classic present. HAHAHA. today wasnt much of an interesting day.and yes! i had trainingggg. :D
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAJIE! :D

today i went out with the oh-so-lovable tennis people. watched hairspray! yay. met at the long flight of steps of marina square and marina square just rocks. collected the tickets and went for lunch. fonggie was telling us how cedarians............... HAHAH. so funny! ariel is desperate! :D :D
so smuggled outside food in and i was eating YU! right ariel? lol. had so much fun sitting with abiiiiiii in the theatre. (: after the movie, ruth had to go for tuition and ariel had to go for training. and i bet she was late. i reached home earlier than her! after that, abi took the mrt home and me and fonggie took 36 home. direct bus! that's exactly why i love my house. reached home pretty fast and i fell asleep. woke up before dinner and here i am. so after using he computer, i gotta go do my COMPO. ohman. i hate compos. ):
let's ban compos forever.
who's with me?

omg, it's scary, it's freaky.
it's.... AHHHH.
how freaky can it get ?
i mean, there's both. not one!
although one's bad enough.
IT'S SO SCARY!

my internet finally worked !
(:

hello.
i wont be blogging for long. cos my com outside cant sign in/post, so now im using the laptop. and my sister i bringing the laptop to university soooooo, this means i cant blog until she comes back during the weekends. ):
so yeah, i dont know if im sick or something. had some irritatingggg block nose. lalala.
there's pe tomorrow, damn.
i want TOPPPP lah.

hmm, currenlty being boredddd.
LALALALA. someone's currently being angry with me now.
aww.

hello ! went to school for NDP celebration :D IT TOTALLY ROCKED. YAY. so went to school in red and white. i wore an ELMO shirt ! HAHAHA. had such a great time. okay so i went to school, did the usual stuffs except that we didnt assembly in the courtyard. so after a while, we went up to the empty corridors to watch the uniform groups march. SOMEONE WAS INSIDE @%^^%%$! hahahaha, so after watching the different dance performances, we went into the MPH. yayy. and had 1 hour of prize-presentation. so after that had performances like GUZHENG ( and tricia was SMACK-DAB in the middle :D ) and erm... i forgot. oh yeah, CHOIR. lalala. then had vidoes.
so we saw SOMEONEEEE ! yay. yantian spotted her ! (: so i was so damn excited and i immediately told yushu ! she PRACTICALLY shriekkked. and she still claimed she didnt. when she's so bloody excited. and OMG, did you know who else we saw ? WE SAW.. SOMEONE ! cool dude !(sorry, got influenced by candia and my cool talking). was soooooooooooooooooooooo exciting !

and yay ! there was commitee singiiing. everyone got so HIGH ^^ so yeah, after assembly, we saw her again ! LAWL. :D so we went downnnn. AND WENT UP AGAIN. to see the band room, yeah ? if you think so! heheheh. so me and deboRAHHH went off to paya lebar to meet youjin, annabel and jacinth. yayyy. ended up in orchard, where we were supposed to watch harry potter. but the next movie was at 4.15. ): and the show, secrets was at 5 ! sad huh. so we took taxi to lido. and rushed to watch SECRETS. they had no harry potter there ):
weird. so yeah, bought popcorns ans stuffs. had a horrible ending (not the show), getting poured by leftover popcorns. 2 CONTAINERS. WOW. freak.

so went to take some neos, although im kinda sick of them already. just for memorie yeah ? so turned out pretty okay. then went home on bus 36 with deborah. and HAHAHA, she had to walk home ! :D cheer people ! hehehheeh . so here i am right now, and i still have the tattoo on my face and arm :D. didnt wanna take it off. HAHAHAH.
guess what ? i finished dinner at 10.45 ! around there, maybe earlier . late right ? HAHS.
bye!

HELLO !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
(:

there's maths and prodesktop test tomorrow.
one after the other. SIGH. what's up man.
you heard that ? it's PRODESKTOP!
shuckkkks. i cant do prodesktop properly !
gahh, this sucks. what about MATHS ?
the ever-so-lovely MATHS ?!! freak !
nooooooo
WISH ME LUCK OKAY ? :D

hmm, what should i say ?
candia is being sarcastic.
marie is --DAOing-- me. she isnt replying on msn !
deborah is being weird. but she always is.
yushu is being scary ! i'm so scared to call her.

let's cooperate alright ?
it doesnt hurt just to forgive and forget.
neither does it hurt to NOT get revenge.
sometimes, i just dont understand.
but after all, different people have different thoughts and minds.
we just hope that things get better.
we'll be in 1A for 1 and a half year more.
treasure while you can :D

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NO IM NOT.

i want to go to school.

i dont expect you all to know what i'm feeling right ?
after all, i didnt tell anyone anything.
i cant find anyone to tell. so i'll just keep it to myself.
and wish things will get better.
i dont wanna make things difficult, so i guess i'll just shut up.
would telling make things awkward and difficult ?
maybe it would, so i shouldnt say anything.